..I had to mention that I dont have alot of money or insurance to see a psychiatrist..But Im working on that. so here are my issues
I am extremely antisocial when I talk to people anybody I get extremely nervous and I start scratching my leg or grinding my teeth Ive been like this for years..I dont stutter but sometimes I get so nervous even over the phone I stammer and I have to do breathing exercises before I go to class or even use the phone,
Also I am easily annoyed by people..I spend most of my time alone..I use the net alot but even before I got into myspace lol I stayed solo..in school during lunch time I’ll say middle school we all remember those days right I would be so scared to eat in front of people I would sneak in the hallways in eat sometimes not at all I would wait until I got home to eat
Heres an example when I go to a party or to a friends house with 2 or 3 people I have to be alone for a minute.maybe go outside or to the restroom to gather my thoughts..
.My relationships have suffered because I dont like being around anyone for a long period of time I can tolerate an hour maybe a few hours then Im ready to go home or leave whatever the situation..my ex liked being under me all the time and that was so annoying to me..
Even a date after the movie or dinner talking for 30 min afterwards is cool but then take me home I find it hard to maintain a job or do anything..right now Im in school full-time looking for a job as well
Whats the issue with me?? oh even children I get so annoyed with them I go in my room and close the door after awhile..My nieces and nephews I dont have any children FYI lol
My grandfather was supposedly a schizophrenic my cousin and my grandmother is Bipolar even my brother said he was lol yea I know what a track record..
Im the quietest of them all.. my family is loud they talk alot but me Im so sheltered any suggestions I can type for hours on just me and my issues maybe I’ll make a blog journal..but talking is another issue
I think I have social anxiety but I dont know I know I have anxiety thats for sure
Happy New Year everyone and thanks in advance